stopping

rejoice in this divine romance.

in a very dark time in my life, the sweet Lord connected with me in the picture of romance with him. of dancing with him. of him being all I need. it was the sweetest time I've ever known. in the middle of some painful things, I was safe. I was held. I was taken care of. he knew me. even if I didn't let most people. it was in this place that I learned to rejoice no matter what. that I learned to completely abandon myself to him. the place where I was truly me. I've never been more alive.

life these days is busy. we say that all the time, huh. my days are packed full every hour just about. at least I pack them full. now with 3 babies 3 and under, yes. my days are full. but I do have time. I know I do. I usually want to zone out and watch tv or sit with jake or just be. that's what babies do to you. i'm learning that I can take a little bit of time to try and connect to this place with my Jesus that I knew so well long ago. it won't look the same. I don't have 2 hours in the middle of the day to completely unplug and be in his presence. but I can turn on some Jesus music and amidst the bustle, I can rest. I can ask his Spirit to somehow let the words others have written to penetrate my heart. even when i'm giving time outs and getting out the "play beans" so they can make a gigantic mess in the kitchen. but it keeps them quite for a while. and I can write this and be in that place for a few moments.

Jesus is so sweet. and he is patient with me. he waits. he wants me. and he waits. when I finally step away and ask for him, he comes. every time. so faithful.

rejoice in this divine romance.

love.
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