heeeeeeey

a lunch/coffee/dinner date with mer. 

if we were together right now, i would be telling you about the following:

the house we are going to rent closed today for the buyers we are renting from. this is great news. we are supposed to get the keys tomorrow, but there is one more thing with the bank they have to process or something...we are trying to be excited, but the move in date has been moved back several times, so we are not exactly holding our breath.
we REALLY hope we get the keys tomorrow because my amazing, wonderful, little brother danny is in town riiiiiiight now and he leaves on saturday and he is an INCREDIBLE mover. and would help make jake's life much easier if he was here to help. SO HOPE WITH US, K?!? 

i have an addiction. it's very serious. yes, it's my classic pregnancy ice craving. i've mentioned it before. i need help. my poor teeth are taking a beating.

we had a babysitter come over tonight so we could go hang out with danny. of course, we hit up red robin and then went to the mall to get DOUBLE DOOZIES from great american cookie company. oh.my.geesh. so worth a trip to the mall just for one. if you are unfamiliar, a double doozie is TWO cookies of your choice stuffed with the most perfect frosting/cream ever. fo real. brought much joy to my inside baby and me.

i am excited about being moved into our new house because i have not watched any of my shows since the end of january. i will have many to catch up on when jake works weddings the next couple months.

i have NO IDEA what baby stuff i have packed away and seriously need to do inventory of what we have/need for this baby3 to come. which i am getting quite excited about not being pregnant anymore................ :)

i am experiencing one of the worst pregnancy things ever lately. it literally takes me at least one whole hour after i get in bed to actually fall asleep. usually it takes 1 1/2-2 hours every night for my body to finally settle down. it.is.horrible. it's surely not because i am lacking tiredness. everything is so tired, but it's like i have ants in my legs and just cannot settle down. last night after an hour of trying to go to sleep, i finally got up and came down the stairs and had ice cream and watched hgtv until 1:30am. i always crave really obscure things while i'm just laying there in bed. the other night i couldn't stop thinking about peanut butter and milk so i finally made myself get up and get some so i would stop thinking about it. sleep is always uncomfortable for a pregnant person after the 30 week mark, but this is way worse then i've ever had before. i think i need to get into some soothing tea or something like that.

i've been to ikea 3 times to get some new curtains that i want for our new bedroom, and they are out of the ones i want every time! sheesh, ikea. but glad to know i'm unique in what i like. lol.   

i miss my portland friends.

the last 2 months have seriously been insane. life has felt exhausting and overwhelming pretty much every day. yet, we just keep going. there are times when it feels like jake and i are business partners who check in with what each other has gotten done for the family that day. other times, we are all grumpy and not super cheerful. sometimes, we can just laugh and see the blessings that this time of life has brought us. sometimes life feels incredibly inconvenient and i am tired of juggling the kids to get them out of the way or to be quiet or whatever. when we pull into the "work house" and finley asks, "is this our home?" my heart breaks a little bit and all i want is a home for him again. at the same time, i am thankful he has adjusted and does enjoy being here for the time being. i've experienced the depth of my weakness as a mom and wife and human being. i cannot do it all. a sweet, difficult lesson to learn. and certainly not the way i would choose to learn it, but it brings me to a place of repentance and thankfulness. i may or may not have said the "f" word more times in the last 2 months than my whole life combined. see, major weakness here. haha. at least when i did say it no one could hear me. it's amazing to see the Lord's provision in all this. the way random, unexpected people have blessed us. thank you. the way finley has learned to be a "good worker" because every afternoon we are outside watching and helping daddy work. let me tell you, it's a huge help for jake and josh when finley uses his shovel to dig mulch out of their well maintained areas and place it in the grass or the driveway, etc. haha. but he is learning. and that is a sweet, sweet blessing to see his heart want to work. he has this one area he always plays in and he calls it his construction site. he has his shovel, dump truck, front loader, and a giant snow shovel that he LOVES using. he's something else, that boy. audrey has just gone along with everything. she will just follow us along and is usually happy if she has a baby doll and stroller in hand (her lip seems to be healing really well! she busted it really badly at the park on sunday).

all in all, we are SO ready to be in our new place. and SO thankful for how we've been provided for in this crazy time. 

now please, tell me what's been going on with YOU? 

if we were out together, i'd totally be having blueberry pancakes right now :)
guess i'll go start my hour trek into dream land. 

love you so.
mer