the car wreck

to be honest, i've had a bit of a tired heart the last few days. yesterday, i was quite impatient and didn't care too much about investing in finley and audrey's hearts. i know this is normal as a mom and i'm guessing extra normal for a pregnant momma. i went to the Y to get some alone time and maybe sweat a little. while i was there i listened to this song that rang true of my heart. i'll share it in a bit. i got through the day and enjoyed a nice glass of wine once the kids were in bed :).

this morning started out much better. we ate breakfast and headed out to take audrey to a well baby visit. right around the corner from the doctor's office is where the accident happened. i was just driving down the street and saw a green truck coming through an intersection quite fast. i realized quickly she was way too close. i honked as fast as i could, but suddenly realized she was going to hit us, and bam. it happened. we were both going about 30mph i think. she hit my driver's side door smack in the center. as i realized what happened, the first thing i did was turn around and check on my precious babies. audrey was crying, she was on my side of the car. the first thing finley said was, "my chicken nuggets!" as he had been eating some and they flew out of hands when we collided. i kinda chuckled about that. i was super shocked and several people came over to check on us. i called jake. the firemen and police came and did all the paper work stuff. the lady who hit us broke her arm and was taken off in an ambulance. since she hit right at my door, all the side airbags in our van went off. this was an incredible blessing. it hit my face pretty hard and i got a few cuts on my left arm. if they weren't there though, i know i would be much more hurt. i'm sure i would have hit my head hard against the window. i had no idea vans even had side airbags, but i am grateful. jake came and took care of all the paper work and talking to the police. we got home and we've just been chilling all day. i am getting more stiff and sore by the hour, so i'm not exactly looking forward to tomorrow. sweet baby3 has been moving and kicking a lot, so i think all is well in there.  our van is probably totaled. we haven't heard for sure. either way, we're expecting to not get an equivalent van. we got a great deal on the one we have. we'll see. in my flesh, i'm hoping whatever we get still has electric doors for the kids :). i sure love those.

all sons and daughters: "reason to sing"
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UGhmvNGFENE

this is the song i was listening to and meditating on yesterday. i needed a reason to sing. i realized yesterday that there is always a reason. and it's because God is King and He is so so good. today, i've looked at my precious babies differently. it scared me deeply that they could have easily gotten hurt or much worse. they were unharmed. i wish it didn't have to happen, but i am thankful that in God's grace i can learn something and be reminded in my silly, sinful heart, that He has the whole world in His hands. thanks for all the love and well wishes. i really appreciate it. 

gonna try and get some sleep! love you guys.

mer